It hurts......

I maybe the stupidest guy in the world thinking that something good would come out hanging with her. The beginning of the hang out was good. We were catching and talking about good times. I was content with myself and her. I was trying to do something nice for her since it was her last couple of days in Des Moines before she had to back to school in Minnesota by taking her to see her best friends up in Ames which are my sisters in a sense. It all completely backfired on me. They had their little girl talk session and I'm just there overhearing it all. It starts to hurt bad because they're talking about all the bad relationships they have been in and I got so upset because I felt like I could've been one of the guys she could've dated and it would've been probably her best relationship ever. I just got angry and wanted to throw something or yell, but I couldn't. I was in their presence and didn't want it to make it look weird. It sucked so much driving home because she is in the car right next to me. The trip home was awkward than the trip up. I was just feeling so depressed driving home, but I'm sure she didn't notice. I hate how I have to put on a fake face or tone of voice to her. I just want to as her what I did wrong or am I just not good looking enough. I know also that she said that a long distance relationship doesn't work from what I picked up in their conversations. I know that for a fact is not a good example. She dated a guy she knew for 3 weeks and he was from Minnesota and she is from Iowa. They're broken up no, but what if they were still together? You're telling me it would've worked then. I'm just an emotional wreck right now. I hope whoever reads can kinda understand what my life has been going through for the past year now. Its just unbearable.........